September 28, 2011

NEW.... newbb... nyu... neyu.. noo.. hmmm....

This is for you Anshu aunty:

I am working as a content writer for websites in Pune. I cannot write slang or text language anymore. I am back to your beloved vowels and complete words…, happy now?

Even now while writing, a hundred errors keep popping into my mind. But I am ignoring some. They are a tad bit too much. I hope all my blogs from now on would not irritate you… heehee... :D

The actual blog:

The new job is …OK.

I am getting to write.

Not what I want to, but something is better than nothing.

Starting from here, it might lead me to what I do want to write about.

Life in Pune: if you don’t have your personal vehicle, it’s a crazy time walking everywhere and using the bus. Back home, I hardly ever travelled by auto, leave alone bus. I am missing the luxuries of home like hell. Princess realized she’s not as tough as she thought she was.

But something about this whole affair makes me want to go on, and that is, everyday I think, “this is it. I am going home. Why am I doing this? I don’t need to! No one told me to come here and start living on my own (albeit with the help of dad’s salary).” But it was my decision so I will follow it through. But the fact that probably from next month I won’t have to ask dad for money makes me feel a bit less guilty,not that the folks have any problem. They told me there is no need to work and all. I want to.

So the best thing about this place is we don’t have a formal dress code or anything. Oh no, that is the second best thing. The best thing is the coffee… :) not the way I like. Oh but, this isn’t princess palace. Coffee is coffee…it’s the best pick-me-up I know other than chocolate and love.

I never thought I was spoilt. I knew I could manage in any freaking situation. I didn’t even think I would miss home but I sort of do. I miss getting up late and eating and cooking whatever and whenever I wanted. Even now, I can cook whenever I want but the very sight of the hostel stove and the tiny platform it is kept on, takes away whatever interest left in me after taking the foodstuffs down one floor. I miss college life. It was such a bed of roses. Anyways so that’s it. All these things that I have to complain about, they make me think of quitting. These are the very things that are making me want to go on. I know it’s not a big deal but quitting this and going home is just so easy. The very fact that I have thought of quitting makes me want to go on. It’s high time. I need to learn the ways of life. So I am learning.

Besides, God is with me. :) naah, don’t think why I am suddenly turning all spiritual… just that something happened yesterday that was too much of a coincidence and it happened right after I prayed to God to help me. And there, he sent help, not once or twice, but thrice. :) I just know. Some good people out there are praying for me. Or I am just blessed. Blessed, even though I am a snob, a selfish, self-centered, complaining hypocrite. Still good things keep happening. Hope it continues.

June 25, 2011

More Pretty Little Girls In The Lane!

I hate this damn mood of mine!

"Got up on the wrong side of bed today"…

I had decided of writing a new blog post… after all these no good, time pass days that have come and gone since final yr exams… but no today I had to feel gloomy. Today I had to feel the happy-sad feeling you get for example in holidays… when you remember good times, when you wish for things you aren’t going to get, when everything in your life is just perfect, theoretically, yet in reality you feel there’s something big missing. Blog blog. Hmm I had two things in mind. One was this zodiac related blog. Actually related to my zodiac, to be exact; I guess it’s no secret I love to think, talk and analyze everything about me. Second was about the long procrastinated blog about my besties…

But no, why should small things go my way??

So here I am writing. About what? I don’t know. Definitely not the above two topics I wanted to write about.

It’s raining outside… a slight drizzle… It’s beautiful actually… Sweet… breezy… I’m sitting in the gallery, letting this feeling wash over the one I had been feeling till now… I can see children on their li’l bicycles, cycling around. I’ve always felt children are quite stupid. The stupidity is what allows them to live. Not drag around life like us adults.



Yes I am one now. Very soon I am supposed to make big decisions, start earning, and start being finally on my own. I’ve waited for this moment for years. Being on my own… being independent… and yet, after reaching this place, sometimes I feel, why can’t I get back to being a stupid little girl, who doesn’t have to go through a heart break, who doesn’t have to decide if she wants to go for a job, go for her PG, or get her guts together and go after the dream of joining the armed forces that she’s had a lot many times. One who doesn’t have to worry about her future, or anything for that matter other than how she’s going to explain to mom that she broke the new crockery. One who can make paper boats and leave them in streams. One who damn never ever has to worry about how she’s looking, If her hair’s alright in place. Who can play in the mud all day and get dirty. And doesn’t have to worry about what anyone might think about “getting dirty”! :D hehe.

Childhood was fun. Innocent. Carefree. Beautiful. And yes, stupid! :)

More pretty little girls in the lane. My god this colony is full of shrieking little girls running around in short skirts. It’s raining hard now. I’m getting wet coz of the rains, only one side though. And I’m cold. And there’s water on my phone. And on my lappy!!! Oh no!

Hmm… better now…


It has stopped. Raining. And I’m dropping back into gloom world… Can hear birds chirping… A train in the distance.

Life goes on no matter in what mood you are. Better realize it, get your stuff together and kick that sucky mood right in d back!

Blog on one of the two... Coming right up! :)

More girls cycling on pink colored baby cycles! Holding pink flowers… Taking their kid sisters along with them. Childhood had some responsibilities too. But if you messed them up, mum would scold. Not god. Not fate. I’ve had mine. Now it’s time to suck it up and go be a grown-up. Time to get ready for taking blame/ glory for my actions.

Girl’s rock!

Eh, that dint go there… stupid me! don’t know why I wrote that. :-/ but, Felt good while thinking and writing it. I’ll let it be there. Hehehehe... :D

May 30, 2011

wrote a song...

its a stupid poem cum song. but it has the potential to b very good with some good music.

he was the lover. loving, caring and oh-er

but he was a looser, a big crying looser.

guess what, im sooo over you!

you think he's oh-so-good, oh-so-cute..

always chivalrous and never rude.

you are head-over-heels,

the way ur heart he steals.

thus the storybook romance begins...

you both fall in too deep, in too fast..

you gotta love it all while it lasts..

but guess what, im now sooo over you!

then u see cracks, all seems shaky..

there are so many locks,but yet no key..

u try to do your best..

but it just doesnt rest..

hence starts the downfall...

u start crying more or less..

you wind up in a total mess..

but guess what, im now sooo over you!

yes i am ooohhvvveeeaarrr you..

over, over you....

he cannot hurt you anymore,

you've had too much of him before.

just let him rot in hell..

you've never been so well..

now comes the naaiice part...

youll find your prince,

who will never let you wince...

he's not the one who whines.

u both are so divine..

hence we have the happpyyy ending..

oh but wait, i said, yes, i am over you..

remember, sooo over you..

chewed, spat and walked over you...

dont care what the looser does now.

i've got my one, my hero,

imma get happy-ever-after noowwww...

May 11, 2011

what to do when your dog eats poison?

dog ate poison? what to do:
1. make him vomit. ipecac syrup for inducing vomiting or make him drink saltwater or hydrogen peroxide(for non corrosive, most poisons n rat poison). for corrosive poisoning, give some oil orally, dont induce vomiting. dont give anything to eat as it wont b able to eat fr few hours after this.
2. take him to a vet immediately!!!!
3. do not waste time as the poison acts fast mostly within two hours.and if you have administerd all anecdotes, you have keep him under observation for next two days.
4. identifying what poison your dog has eaten is the most imp thing as this will determine what anecdote is to be given. theres none for rat poison as it contains and this will have to be dealt with making the dog vomit.
5. give activated charcoal tablets for gastric lavage.
6. your dog Might LOOK OKAY but he might be bleeding internally, take him to a vet.
7.give vitamin k but not in extra doses as it will be lethal.
 Start treatment with vitamin K, 5 mg per kg of body weight, twice a day for three weeks or longer.

If later than two hours, but less than 12 hours, give activated charcoal to help prevent absorption of the rat poison.

hope this was useful
love ur pets, take care of them.
if ur dog has eaten poison go n do these things IMMEDIATELY.
if ur just a reader keep reading:
iv wrote this blog cz wen sherry supposedly ate rat poison, me and my family members were scared lyk nethng.. supposedly cz no1 saw her eating it, but the whole ball of poison was missing without even a crumb, usualy a feat impossible for rats & she is used to eating every damn thing she can find.....i searched up everything available on the net that we could do becoz unfortunately the animal hospital we took her too were clueless and they gave her something, an anecdote used for most poisons but it doesnt work on rat poison.. so we did give her salt water. she vomited a bit but cudnt c the poison in it, its a good sign if u c the poisonous substance out in the vomit. then we did everything another famous vet told us on the phone. she was okay. she's a strong doggie. once she ate a lizard, drank a whole bucket of salt water, still didnt puke and was okay still... touchwood.
anyway that was when i decided ill write this blog. it took me a few months to finally write it, but i did.

May 05, 2011

adios.. the farewell blog

gave wats supposedly the final exam of engineering today. it will be the final, if i pass in all the subjects.

i am feeling weirdly happy today and it's not because the exams have's just that i'v got this feeling that something beautiful is in store.

now i'v been meaning to write the farewell blog for a long time, and thought i might as well get it done with.

hmmm.. where shall i start???

of crse with friends...

bt first i wanna say that our cutie junnus gave us an awesome farewell...

1st year.. wasnt really scared or apprehensive about this new college, new people, new teachers. it was the same old place.

my same old friend, pooja.i had a good friend to fall back on if need be.

things took off. made new friends. first set: pranoti, nikita, rucha, sharvari. we4 had a blast in D section. niki n prana

were the most fun-loving and helpful people i'd met so far. next came rucha and sharvari. my practical partners(literally not figuratively.

our roll nos were together so we ended up sharing the practical table). now all of us

have a special liking for our practical partners... we have the most fun with them. we never did a single practical. kept playing with the

prism,gossiping about every thing possible and writing our names on the table... pooja was my best buddy all the year through.. we

had so much fun going to the tution at 5.30 a.m. in frezzing weather wering two three sweaters, scarves and gloves, singing songs..

poo and i did have some ups n downs in our freindship , but all of it was cherished..

in first year, we'd done a couple dance. that's when apurw, natish, anirudh became gud friends of mine.. apurw, my brother/ friend

who incidentally was in the same branch as me, iv fought with him, iv teased him.i've laughed with him. had fun tym..

will never forget his awesome personality and charisma with which he wins people.. natish.. wat 2say.. hehe.. the coolest guy,

never to be seen in any sort of tension... so many controversies related to us.. but we got over it all..

anirudh.. tere bare me kuch accha ni likhungi.. kabi help nai karta..:P jaa..but ur fun to b with nevertheless..

i also did ramp in quantum.. how can i forget my ramp friends...? rishi, noreen, shivani, asmita, ankita mitkari, etc... new friends.. loved them..

went on to have an awesome time and an amazing friendship with asmita(mark! wait fr it..).. and loads of ramp walks with superodels

rishi n noreen.. noreen.. love this gal.. tall slim gr8 attitude.. helping n rilly sweet.. too bad she's oms in hostel so.. never cud invite her over

fr sleepover on girls nyt out ;) .. bt nor ul b here nw.. :)

ppl abt whom i'd heard or who were my friends in 11-12th.. damru, nupur, bobde.. altho abhijeet bobde met with a bad accident 1nce while we were

returning from practice.. n things wernt so fun nemore.. :( but he was well enuf to attend quantum n c the ramp he'd organized.. :)

nups, knew u in final yr really.. gr8 leader.. next two yrs we r together.. hyd me jitni novels hai sab padh dalenge...

damru ... ur the best yaar.. apni tomboy! wens the next nytout, eh?

bobde.. tu accha tha. accha hi rehna yaar..
had loads of fun then..

hmmm... 2nd year..
seniors!... bopu mam ... loved her attitude.. had a gr8 final yr batch.. abhay bhaiyya, shweta di.. raizada mam.. rilli active ppl.. sutraj sir(helpd n guided thru so many thngs!! placements &projects..:) )

3rd yr batch, that's our immediate seniors.. found them a bit reserved or may b full of attitude(some of them only!!).. bt didnt have much rapport with them..

altho sm of them were rilli nice.. bopu mam, nivi mam..mrunmai sir..pooja mam(got to know her wen we were in 3rd yr)

then came my paaagal batch mates of extc!!

vangi(salma behen[cz she's in love wit atif aslam, we call her salma, atif's sister. name courtesy:patinge tai])- total psycho(these days i call er my long-lost crazy sis)

shraddha patinge(shabnam behen/ fulan devi)- awesomy lissomy lass :) ths gal z so much fun to b with... altho we did run into a few miniscule arguments, it was all well at the end.. had so much fun with u in colors-10 and wheelspin-11... madness.. :D
shraddha gawande(basanti)- intellingent.topper. rather sweet, haughty, helping, sincere(mostly.. yes! she's had a few personal bunk n masti sessions too).like her.
ruchika- badbad badbad badbad badabad... chatterbox.. never stops. kabhi kabhi awesome jokes marti hai.. n smtyms.. rili paanchat.
ria(mata, aap mahan ho)- actually paagal. she's mad. and bold. she will always b surprising u, u can never tell wat she'll b doin next. also u have to avoid being hit by her, standing close to her.. if she hits u, it hurts.. she 1nce slaaped my arm, my whole hand kept paining fr 1 day..
these were my practical mates(again nt figuratively.. partners while performng practicals)and as i'v said.. shraddha2, vangi were my special sweeties.. had dunia bhar ki gossips, fun, chaapo-topo with them.. will miss all of it.. :(

1pe 1 free:
minakshi- ria/vangi's saathidaar:.. silent. she does masti but only with her frnds.. these days we call her naagin.. :P
neha.dolas- shraddha gawande's saathidaar: shy. sweet. toppers league.jitni sidhi dikhti hai utni hai nahi.. :P
wadaskar- manisha.w.(madonna)- patinge's mate- (mani mani mani.. show me the money! ;) ) i hated her at first. weird girl. weird behaviour. seriously weird expressions..but then she became manisha sharma's roomate. dint like her even more. then slowly got to know her.. rilli sweet at tyms.. always helping.. frank.. n has rilli cute dimples but hates being called cute(bolo bhala!) dances really really sexily.. n really well..

joint package:

dristi,pooja: i love drishti. i really do. i fell in love with her humour during tour. she makes me laugh harder than ne1.. rilli rilli funnnn to b with.. my teddy bear..those ppl who dont know her well, r unfortunate.. im lucky 2have a frnd lyk her..she's also intelligent
pooja- sweet, shy, simple, intelligent, smart, taarif karu kitni..

apoorva, neha.g.- apurva(apoo) iz the sweetest human being on planet earth.. helping . loving. caring. she's jst sweeet. thats wat pops into my mind when i see her.
neha(anarkali)- lil bit crazy, lil bit funny.. lil bit masti....super duper awesome dancer, be it bharatnatyam,kathak, hiphop or bollywood. this grls rocks on d dance floor.

kattu- turi- kittykat- she's again mad. innocent lil daisy.. i sat 1nce with her during class n she kept laughing n kept making me laugh the whole tym.. even wen sir was staring at us. no wonder thakre sir threw her out f class 1nce..

isha(issaa)- kitni re pyari tu. shy sweet... v.v. cute. n smtyms does mast mashti.. lemme recall todays incident at bapu kuti.. asmi was all serious.. tellng isha hw she wants to gv the gre.. n hw her parents want her to do job, n hw she's never listened to them, n now she wants to. thats wen our cute lil isha says,
aey tune baal kyu khole, teko garmi ni horai??..made us all laugh like maniacs..

minal(singer/ wardha ki singing idol)- topper. always in tension. mostly sincere.. dragged dwn into the list of hopeless students attyms by her true friends.. :) hey,thats wat engg is all about..

graduating frm sincerity to hopelessness... :D

kon bacha? hm, pragati pranita.. sersly, zada kuch interaction hi ni tha.. thikthak.. they dnt even match their ans wit me after the paper.. they only look n talk if they wanna have the ans to ne ques... thats quite mean actually.. bt most ppl r like that.. so watever.. yes pranita pragati, i still like u both..

abhilasha, deepali mam: hmmnn hnnmmm.. :)
swapnaja: plz talk to ppl.. pls socialize!!!

mona mam!! the added m of our mark.. (mmark)- beautiful dancer, classical as well as rest. mishti mishti..awesssssssommmmeee singer.. her voice z lyk honey. tomar kokiler moto awaz.. shes already won a lot of awards fr dance n singing.. i personally feel she can win indian idol as well..

now comes my MARK... m-manisha, a-asmita k-kumud.. pata hai kya.. iv already written a lot meko jaan ppe ara... ill write a whole new post jst fr u guys.. :).. bt later..

departments except extc:
archu , tandra, pillu(goswami),zunzun,anky ..

minakshi das, ankita bhardwaj: two crazzies.. had fun wit u wenevr i was wit u..

archu ur cool.. pagal.. and a grl who loves to have fun n talk n entrtain ppl wit that talk.. wenevr i wana go crazy expect me at u n asmi's... :D
tanu... had seen u wit nabo di.. then rucha.. finally got to know u myself in wheelspin.. zada tym mila ni.. bt ur gr8 to work wit.. ur sweet smile n sweet talk wins over evry1.. tumi khub mishti r tomar khub dhorjo dhorar khomota ache.. :) jst love her..

mrunal, roma, prajakta, pragati.t., pampam,aastha,somrita,ankita roy, comp frnds,it frnds : had some good tyms.... :) ...

ankita mitkari: im ur fan!

pillu.. u'v got the sexiest eyes iv ever seen.. light coloured with lots of kajal.. no wonder all the boys r crazy ... masht girl.. very cute n sweet.. live barbie doll..
zunzun(apoo).. pagali.. :) 1of the most feminist ppl iv met... places where women r still cnsiderd lowlives, shud hav leaders like u.. :)

guys i havent forgotten u..

amar.. i think tu 1of the gud guys f our class hai.. also ncc backgrnd.. :) sweet guy. smtyms veeery funny. love ur red avenger!

bhagat.. chal jaa re pagal(akash chai chahiye.. pls... mangwaa..(wheelspin)).. :D u smtyms go mad, nai to tu b accha hai..

dhiraj jha.. bhai tum gr8 ho.. ullu bhi accha bana lete ho.. ;)

dhiraj gawali..(kara kara sinkara).. famous hai tu.. dark hua to kya, i think u luk smart! :) remo d'souza jaise dikhta hai..

mayur.. baccha hai tu.. boht bada paagal b hai.. kahbi lagta hai boht sidha hai.. kabhi lagta hmmm... my project partner enjoyd masti n talkative( :P ) wid u n preet n ku..

pratik mote: pratik mote, tu mota kyu ni hai??? aaj pratik mote ka birthday hai kya?? :P thiz guy is one of the craziest guys... and has an awesm personality! super singer/ guitarist

baba amte: baba tu mast hai. paagal harshad.. tour me u were the funniest.. boht boht hasata.. bas chidchid kam kar.. & plays keyboard mast..

shrikant: sadha porga.. nai tevdha pan sadha nahi ahes.. sweet, gud leader.. bt uv stll gt to learn how to win over ppl.. potential boht hai boss..keep it up...

guddu bhai: tu bas has..

avnish bhaiyya: :) tour me aap mahan the.. neway.. yaad hai hum sab sath me tulzapur gaye the shayd jb we had to pay to get shortcut darshan cz we were gettng late n hame jaldi bulaya tha thakre sirne.. toh u had refused to get the darshan in that way.. hd really liked and admired that.. :)

amol: tu bhi ek cartoon peice hai.. paagal. funny guy.. tho.. n a grrrrr8888 awesome writer of marathi lang...

vimal: shy. silent. deep. very high level complicated english user. :)
gaurav karn: kya dance karte ho....!!! :))

tejas: on th drums on our departmental band..
thanx fr lettng me play stupidly on the drum whil u ppl practiced. :)

kya kahu ill miss u all mere ek se ek khaas namuno..
preet, pknbr(my part-roomies), mark(my gang) n srivastav saab mayb, (i.e. my best friends)will get a special blogpost all for themselves! :) abi im too tired to write abt u item pieces..

my juniors!
i wont forget u! uv all been there too...

pallavi.. meri pyaari junior.. mam mam karti rehti hai.. 1nce she said 2me.. mam, ur my idol! i was surprisd.. yaar tum mere jaise idol rakoge toh hogaya tumhara kalyan!

devdatta.. agn 1of my fav.. into the doin common bhala 4all..cute sweet guy.... im a fan of his n his classmates dance the 1, pyaar hame kis mod pe leaya with white gloves! ;) he looks lyk a kiddo wen he smiles :)

yaman.. oh this hep dude here is so arrogant!hes full of attitude and thats wat i love abt him! :) awesssome dancer..(teach me those headstands, will ya?) naah but he tries to b polite 2me at tyms(practice makes perfect yaman..)..thats wen u seem rilli nice to me... :)

ujwal: cutest emo n cutest junior :)

anurag: wheelspin me hamara kaamwala.. boht kaam kiye beta tune.. also he wrote keep blogging on my message scarf(m.s.).. here i am.. heard ur a gud chess player.

parikshit: u wrote a lot of surprising things.. buh its ok.. :) he's got a really funny smile cz wen he smiles, u smile automatically wit him.. :) agn gud dancer.. cute guy..

himani , ankita, devyani: trimurti: jitne active ho utna accha hai... aur raho..

ankur gupta: the earlier statement wasnt approved by this person :P so, ill say ur very chivalrous n quite a charmer.. and a good junior, anchor also  :D

so all of these r my active juniors.. also shreyas, neha 2, paresh, nabanita(u got gr8 potential girl.. awesome personality kp rocking), pallavi.g.,shraddha's roomie(cnt remembr the name)..
r ppl worth mentioning.. dekho mere pyaaare juniors, extc ka naam roshan karo.. jis level pe hai, wo maintain karo.. ya aur upar lejao..
keep rockin extc! give the mechies n comps n etrxs a complex.. :D
jaise we ppl were best in placements, studies , extrcurr, cultural(nt xageratng,merely statng the facts), xpecting the same frm u..

finally, its been a gr8 journey..but it's come to an end.. n if iv forgotten u or to write sumthng abt u, thn sorry,.. but that does NOT mean ur not jst as special.. it jst means iv got a bad memory..

n do inform me if iv forgtn u, its nt2hard 2make changes2 this.. ;)

April 23, 2011

i smell something fishy.........!!

i wonder why i can smell everything! i tell u, my nasal power(sounds so weird) z v.strong... haha... u wanna bet?>
1. can u smell spider n cobwebs?? i can...
i can also sniff out the air n tell wats cooking next door...its 98 pcnt right... i can tell the ingredients not the dish..
i can even identify the smell of booger if sm1 near me has caught cold...(yukky right?)
well i never said having a strong smelling power is a very good thing...
altho i am always the first to tell mom if there's an lpg gas leakage goin on.. or if there's a dead rat somewhere... turns out there are more of not-so-good smells than nice one's...
altho i smell leaves.. the freshy smells.. n the sort of yukky leafy smells... i can smell the air that blows just before rain.. and i feel that 40% of the enjoyment that comes from food is from it's aroma... :) i can only identify the fragrance of a few flowers specifically.. but ill improve if i smell em more..
actually i think every1 can smell all these.. they just cant identify them....
altho i've never met anyone who can smell spiders n cobwebs...
it's not a good smell, believe me..
i wonder why my smelling power z so strong.. y am i the only 1 who can smell spiders??
maybe coz i spend a lot of time with my dog, her qualities r rubbing off on me... hehehe... or maybe coz iv got a phobia of spiders... (im not some1 who gets scared of insects.. i can very well pick up crickets n bugs n throw them on my sis just for the laughs... its just spiders i dont  like.. coz theyve got lyk 8 legs.. n hairy legs n they crawl.. n wen u luk at them u can feel them crawling on ur skin n wat if they crawl into ur mouth or nose while sleeping.........??????????? araaaaarrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
so i just dont lyk spiders so my senses have bcum stronger so that i can protect myself.. i think.. but dont lyk lizards too..they're dirty.. altho the other day i saw a baby lizard trying to eat a piece of paper,thinking its a bug.. i cudnt help myself frm finding it cute... :) anyhow it will grow up n b a dirty lizard.... eeuuww.... thats it and and caterpillars n earthworms.. in hindi all sorts of illis... yuk they're slimy... n sluggy.. n euuww.. thats it the list ends... other than these there arent much creatures i hate.. not even cockroaches... ) then y is it that i smell spiders only???????

April 15, 2011

another poem.. for it rained in april!!!! in india!!! 5th time in a month.. rain!

i opened the window n put my face outside..

i can smell the wet earth n see the pitch black night..

light from my window shines on the freshly watered leaves...

in every drop infront, i can see a reflection of me..

i hear every drop falling on every surface;

with precision, perfection n the sweetest grace..

in the frightful heat of summer, i discovered the magic night of rain..

and i want to experience it again and again...


some1 asked me to describe th weather... i  first said v hav our exam so may b some other tym... today my poetic side is scared of not studyng n failing.. so its keeping a bit low.. then i opened my window.. and words came... i smelled the air.. the words arranged themselves.. i wrote this in my phone n sent it to my friends... :)

April 05, 2011

i'm dancing with tears in my eyes...

baby, baby cry and cry....

I wonder if anyone has noticed before what a wonderfully liberating experience crying can be… yes, CRYING.

I haven’t exactly been a great cry baby for most of my life, but I am improving :) coz iv noticed crying helps a lot. And it’s nothing to be ashamed of.

I… I cry for all the wrong reasons or better, weird reasons…

I cry when they show that blind dog on heavy petting n Seema Rehmani goes all teary eyed ”she is saying thank you”

I cry every time while reading Erich Segal’s love story and I know she’s going to die…

I cry while watching the most stupid scene in AURO when Amitabh makes Vidya Balan and Abhishek go “round round”

I cry when my veggie roll falls off my hands onto the floor…

I cry when I’m all angry n complaining to the HOD! (Seriously that was the most embarrassing thing ever! It was urrgghhh…y did I cry again? There’s just no reason. My tear taps are berserk!)

I don’t cry for normal reasons… my sis is going away for a year she’s crying. They all look at me expectantly, they say she’s gonna cry too… but me? Nope, my eyes are as dry as the Sahara desert!

Kumud, my bestest friend for life ever, who never cries, reads my going away message n has tears in her eyes… I cover my face up with a book coz I’m sort of embarrassed, her roomies go, she’s also crying… I say I am not. They inspect my eyes closely n only then r they satisfied that m not.(they dint need to coz soon I was rolling on the floor laughing on the fact that she cried…)

I have talked with my friends about this though… they say sometimes even they cry for no reason at all…

I think crying is letting go. Setting free.

You cry when u have had a bit too much… when you have saved a lot of tears on a lot of occasions. N it’s like the pot is overflowing n u have to empty it immediately, with no respect whatsoever of the place or situation you are in…

Crying is even better than laughing coz when u have got something to be sad about, laughing will just push it back into your head for it to come and haunt you at a worse time.. Whereas crying makes you feel that it’s out of your system. (Although extensive crying may lead to a bad headache for two days even… n really red and swollen eyes… but such a crying session happens rarely. Very rarely.)

Usually when I am crying for valid and logical reasons, I cry very less. Hardly a few drops… :D

It’s those things like a movie or novels that make me cry continuously. Or those long cry sessions I was talking about (those rare n really strong ones… but they don’t exist in most people’s lives.)

That’s it. Dunno why im blogging about crying..!! but anyway I’ve said whatever I had on that topic. Except that sometimes I actually feel happy after crying.. :) I love crying at times. No matter what people do, I never feel hurt. Except my family, be it friends, cousins, teachers. Whatever, they can never make me feel sad or hurt. I just don’t have that feeling(mostly). All I ever feel is anger… hehehe lots of it. So if I don’t find any way to vent it, I cry! :) and u know wat? Its bullshit.. that saying that there is a little hurt behind every anger… there’s not! Trust me…

February 03, 2011

tune mere jaana... emptiness... here i'm so lonely.. lyrics.. :)

so some say it's not true... some say it's half true.. some say its rilli true.. but this controversial song.. tune mere jaana..  by rohan rathore from iit guwahati is being listened n loved more n more, day by day  by techno as well as aam junta ... he made this song for this girl supriya, who he rilli loved.. and 15 days after recording this song, he died.. :( then some say supriya committed suicide...but seriously we dont know them... so better stop discussing who did what and just enjoy the song...the song is a personification of sweetness and pain... if u just listen to it with ur eyes closed and reaallly listen...... it makes u cry.. it makes u feel all those things you wanted to hide from.. the lyrics too are absolutely beautiful, having both hindi and english part. the hindi part is very less but veryyyyy sweeeet...wish there was more of are the lyrics:

Oh love of mine, with a song and a whine,

You're harsh and divine like truths and a lie.

But the tale ends not here

I have nothing to fear

for my love is a yell of forgiving and hold on.

In the bright emptiness, in a room full of it,

is a cruel mistress - my heart!

I feel this unrest, that nests all hollowness,

for I have nowhere to go and I'm cold.

And I feel so lonely yeah...

There's a better place than this: emptiness.

And I'm so lonely yeah...

There's a better place than this: emptiness yeah...

Aa.. aa.. aa...

Tune mere jaana.., kabhi nahin jaana..,

Ishq mera, dard mera.. haaye..

Tune mere jaana, kabhi nahin jaana,

Ishq mera, dard mera

Aashiq tera...

Bheed mein khoya rehta hai...

Jaane jahaan....

Poocho toh itna kehta hai -

That I feel so lonely yeah...

There's a better place than this: emptiness...

And I'm so lonely yeah...

There's a better place than this: emptiness yeah... ya..

Aa.. aa.. aa...

/*English Translation of the Hindi Section of the Song*/

Tune mere jaana, kabhi nahin jaana, (You, my love, have never ever realized)

Ishq mera, dard mera (my love, my pain)

Tune mere jaana, kabhi nahin jaana, (You, my love, have never ever realized)

Ishq mera, dard mera (my love, my pain)

Aashiq tera... (Your lover)

Bheed mein khoya rehta hai... (remains lost in the crowd)

Jaane jahaan.... (My dear love, wherever ...)

Poocho toh itna kehta hai - (... asked, he just says ...)

That I feel so lonely yeah...

There's a better place than this: emptiness.

And I'm so lonely yeah...

There's a better place than this: emptiness yeah...

Here is the Download link of the song:

January 31, 2011


m waiting and waiting and waiting..............
wheelspin is over. colors is over. classes have started. results are not out yet. cat n xat results are out, scored okay in xat, lil better in cat.  tho i'm not talking about these things... im waiting for life to happen again. for it to start a big brand new chapter... im waiting for some other things to end, or take a great big turn atleast. i hate being in the middle, not knowing where to go. what is going to happen next. i was more frustated six months back.. atleast now im placed, i know where ill be in next six months... professionally, things seem set. me n  mom have permanently stopped fighting.
 personally, not specifying, but probably u get it, i'm at a loss. im in a whirlwind. atleast now i think i can resist. i havent tried it many times, but once or twice, i cud resist. so i like to think im becoming stronger,,, but the truth is, i dont really know... it might raise it's head anytime it wants.. what m i talking about, it has got it's head raised proudly all the time, only once or twice, it looks down.

i'm in sooo deep, it seems impossible to get out. it isnt like i havent tried..... if i get out, there's nowhere else to go, water everywhere, so i dive right back in... in too deep....i cant stay here forever..i'm human.. i cant survive in water..i need air..there's a whole world down there..but it's submerged.. it's crazy. i so want the water to turn into air... or atleast i want myself to get out and find a beautiful island, where i can forget where i was till then........
but until that happens, im waiting.. waiting and waiting...

January 07, 2011

book review(series i read in december)

i dont feel like writing my thoughts just now. i'm too much inside my mind right now to get out. so i'm writing a book review.

1)the confessions of georgia nicolson series 1 to9:
crazy.crazy, totally crazy!
sometimes it's sooo funny, it's 4a.m. and u have to stifle your laugh to save yourself from earning the title of a lunatic by your neighbours.(although i'm quite sure i mustv already earned that! but we always live in hope..!)
so fun in short.
2)sisterhood of the travelling pants series:
4books. 4friends.1 pant.friendship.travels. love. emotions. i think boys shouldnt read this as they wont be able to read this completely. it's a bit serious.funny. everything. really really nice.
i even thot up how some of our characteristics match wit those girls. bea is me(careless,loving everything, the biggest diff is im not athletic at all.).tibby is asmi(rebel), kum is lena(shy n beautiful), manisha is carmen(the one who cares the most about sticking together.)mmmm... i reeaally liked these series.
3)marykate and ashley olsen:
obviously havent read the whole series. read some 5 or 6 from diff series. these series are quite good fun, for girls, most series result in u feeling as if ur hanging at the end of a rope. harry potter and marykate ashley olsen's are the only book series that kind of make you satisfied with the end. like it has a really complete end in one book itself. i like such books.not those which keep you waiting.
4)my sister the vampire: only read two of these. quite nice fun. n really light light reads.
5) the mediator: okay i read these way back, but as the december book review kind of seems like a series book review, ill add these as well. i loved them.!!
im still inlove with him.the ghost character.wat was his name? sunthng frm j.. lemme check..... hmm, jesse!
sooooooooo, now m reading p.g.wodehouse. iv had a little bit too much of series. next m gonna start the left over three books of jane austen. :) happy reading...
on the brain/mind front, im toooo much occupied these days. college's national level fest. preaprations, other workshoiops, classes(!!!! havent really attended a single one!!!), other things, results tension, training after sixth months: tension, indian army ssb: tension. huh....mmm...nnmmmnn.... bye! ciao!

January 04, 2011

greetings loved ones!!!!!!!!!

aahh... new year!!!
hmmm.. i'm kind of getting a positive feeling for this year work-wise. and everything is bon at home front.!!! i donno much about the third front. that seems mauvais. wardha is vair vair froid right now.. but i'm liking it. coz i'm bound to like it. coz it's winter. i have tried each and everyday to go jogging. most days i forget iv to go, other days i remember but feel to lazy. so iv never been.
27th dec was a horrendous day for me.full of big time blunders!! it started with a stupid phone call.the day that is. i went to college and locked my key inside the dicky of my scooty!!! and i'd lost the spare. got a lift home and found it in neha's room eventually, the spare. got back, got some bad news and bad behaviour on the phone again.went home and from the tnp directory sent a placement party message to few of the ppl wit whom i wasnt in contact. turned out all the nos. in the directory were ended up sending sorry message and eating harsh words from those who were very angry abt the fact that they had wrongly received a party invitew.. i wonder why?????
anyway, finally i slept and it was alll well and good the next day.
any way, bonne annee my chers and cheres... au revoir!!! or bonne nuit! or bonjour, whichever is auitable for the time you read this.