April 05, 2011

i'm dancing with tears in my eyes...








baby, baby cry and cry....

I wonder if anyone has noticed before what a wonderfully liberating experience crying can be… yes, CRYING.


I haven’t exactly been a great cry baby for most of my life, but I am improving :) coz iv noticed crying helps a lot. And it’s nothing to be ashamed of.

I… I cry for all the wrong reasons or better, weird reasons…

I cry when they show that blind dog on heavy petting n Seema Rehmani goes all teary eyed ”she is saying thank you”

I cry every time while reading Erich Segal’s love story and I know she’s going to die…

I cry while watching the most stupid scene in AURO when Amitabh makes Vidya Balan and Abhishek go “round round”

I cry when my veggie roll falls off my hands onto the floor…

I cry when I’m all angry n complaining to the HOD! (Seriously that was the most embarrassing thing ever! It was urrgghhh…y did I cry again? There’s just no reason. My tear taps are berserk!)

I don’t cry for normal reasons… my sis is going away for a year she’s crying. They all look at me expectantly, they say she’s gonna cry too… but me? Nope, my eyes are as dry as the Sahara desert!

Kumud, my bestest friend for life ever, who never cries, reads my going away message n has tears in her eyes… I cover my face up with a book coz I’m sort of embarrassed, her roomies go, she’s also crying… I say I am not. They inspect my eyes closely n only then r they satisfied that m not.(they dint need to coz soon I was rolling on the floor laughing on the fact that she cried…)

I have talked with my friends about this though… they say sometimes even they cry for no reason at all…

I think crying is letting go. Setting free.

You cry when u have had a bit too much… when you have saved a lot of tears on a lot of occasions. N it’s like the pot is overflowing n u have to empty it immediately, with no respect whatsoever of the place or situation you are in…

Crying is even better than laughing coz when u have got something to be sad about, laughing will just push it back into your head for it to come and haunt you at a worse time.. Whereas crying makes you feel that it’s out of your system. (Although extensive crying may lead to a bad headache for two days even… n really red and swollen eyes… but such a crying session happens rarely. Very rarely.)

Usually when I am crying for valid and logical reasons, I cry very less. Hardly a few drops… :D

It’s those things like a movie or novels that make me cry continuously. Or those long cry sessions I was talking about (those rare n really strong ones… but they don’t exist in most people’s lives.)

That’s it. Dunno why im blogging about crying..!! but anyway I’ve said whatever I had on that topic. Except that sometimes I actually feel happy after crying.. :) I love crying at times. No matter what people do, I never feel hurt. Except my family, be it friends, cousins, teachers. Whatever, they can never make me feel sad or hurt. I just don’t have that feeling(mostly). All I ever feel is anger… hehehe lots of it. So if I don’t find any way to vent it, I cry! :) and u know wat? Its bullshit.. that saying that there is a little hurt behind every anger… there’s not! Trust me…

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  2. loved this one! could connect with almost every scenario! i cry a lot too! ...n everywhere i shouldnt!

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  3. you know rutu.......psychology says that the person who cant cry.....is a weak person.......

    sometimes.....crying is a bliss....

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