m waiting and waiting and waiting..............
wheelspin is over. colors is over. classes have started. results are not out yet. cat n xat results are out, scored okay in xat, lil better in cat. tho i'm not talking about these things... im waiting for life to happen again. for it to start a big brand new chapter... im waiting for some other things to end, or take a great big turn atleast. i hate being in the middle, not knowing where to go. what is going to happen next. i was more frustated six months back.. atleast now im placed, i know where ill be in next six months... professionally, things seem set. me n mom have permanently stopped fighting.
personally, not specifying, but probably u get it, i'm at a loss. im in a whirlwind. atleast now i think i can resist. i havent tried it many times, but once or twice, i cud resist. so i like to think im becoming stronger,,, but the truth is, i dont really know... it might raise it's head anytime it wants.. what m i talking about, it has got it's head raised proudly all the time, only once or twice, it looks down.
i'm in sooo deep, it seems impossible to get out. it isnt like i havent tried..... if i get out, there's nowhere else to go, water everywhere, so i dive right back in... in too deep....i cant stay here forever..i'm human.. i cant survive in water..i need air..there's a whole world down there..but it's submerged.. it's crazy. i so want the water to turn into air... or atleast i want myself to get out and find a beautiful island, where i can forget where i was till then........
but until that happens, im waiting.. waiting and waiting...
wheelspin is over. colors is over. classes have started. results are not out yet. cat n xat results are out, scored okay in xat, lil better in cat. tho i'm not talking about these things... im waiting for life to happen again. for it to start a big brand new chapter... im waiting for some other things to end, or take a great big turn atleast. i hate being in the middle, not knowing where to go. what is going to happen next. i was more frustated six months back.. atleast now im placed, i know where ill be in next six months... professionally, things seem set. me n mom have permanently stopped fighting.
personally, not specifying, but probably u get it, i'm at a loss. im in a whirlwind. atleast now i think i can resist. i havent tried it many times, but once or twice, i cud resist. so i like to think im becoming stronger,,, but the truth is, i dont really know... it might raise it's head anytime it wants.. what m i talking about, it has got it's head raised proudly all the time, only once or twice, it looks down.
but until that happens, im waiting.. waiting and waiting...
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